The last week has been pretty emotional for me for a number of reasons. One I’m on a high dosage of estrogen, so I have been very weepy and I contribute a lot of it to that – let’s just go with that, it makes it sound better 😉.
Another reason is Jayson and I are quickly approaching the thaw, fertilization and transfer for the egg donor process. I realized that I had made a blog post titled, “Schedule”, however I forgot to update you all that everything was pushed back a week from our original dates. The lab director decided he needed to be off on vacation on our original dates. I hope this means he will just come back refreshed and ready to go!
I have taken on the MASSIVE project of painting all of our trim and doors white. I have been wanting to do it for some time. Jayson likes the oak wood but finally came around to being on board and the moment he told me he agreed with the plan, I went to work. I had no idea how much work it was going to be, but I have to admit the timing of it all has been perfect. It really has helped me keep my mind occupied instead of obsessing of what we have coming up next week.
I have to share a story with you all that has really touched me and made me realize just how much God is hearing our prayers. On Wednesday, September 6th I had a Facebook message from a friend and former co-worker that I worked with in Kansas City, Jackie. I haven’t seen her for about two years now and she randomly sent me a message that said, “Thinking of you this morning all the way to work, so I prayed for you. Not sure what’s up but Jesus has you today in his thoughts too. Love u.”
I’ll be honest, other than being extremely appreciative and thinking her message was thoughtful, I didn’t think much else about it. Then a couple of days after that I was browsing on Pinterest and ran across a picture that said, “4 Ways God Confirms Your Prayers”. One of the four ways was through his people. It talked about how God will send people to say things to you out of the blue to show you that he is confirming your prayers or hearing your prayers. Once I read that, I immediately thought of Jackie messaging me out of the blue.
Then fast forward to last night. I was listening to some music painting some doors (this is my life now) and my phone went off with a text message. It was a text from a friend from when Jayson and I lived in Herington. Kasey was a co-worker of Jayson’s and someone who reached out to me with open arms when I moved to Herington and was very welcoming to me. Unfortunately since we have moved, we haven’t seen or talked to her much, so it made her text even more surprising. Her text said, “You are heavy on my mind and in my heart. What is going on? Saying prayers.”
I read her text and immediately started crying. How crazy is it that two people that I unfortunately don’t get to see or talk to often, both sent me a message within a week of each other saying something very similar? I feel like God is trying to reach out to us to tell us that people have us in their prayers and he is hearing them. I’m going into next week with some nerves of course, but such peace that I know God is on our side. No matter what happens, he will make it all okay. It was a very surreal moment for me.
Earlier this week, I was going through some personal emails trying to find something and I ran across an email from Jayson’s mom. I have folders for our parents and put special emails in their folders so I can always refer to them when I need to. I don’t know what made me click on this particular email but I did. It was from October 2, 2013. Almost four years ago!! At the very end of her email she said, “You and Jayson are remembered in my prayers for God’s plan for your marriage and family. There is a plan. Sometimes it would just be nice to be able to see the whole picture. Be strong. Smile through your tears. Trust. It will happen. When it does, it will be so special.” It was very comforting for me to read those words four years ago and even more comforting to read them now.
I ask for continued prayers for Jayson and I as we get ready to take on the next step in our infertility journey. We very much appreciate all the prayers and support.
Thy will be done! 💓
With love,
Haley