It has been almost a month since we have updated everyone on where we are at in the process. We know people are getting curious as we have been receiving lots of questions about where we are, how things are going, what’s the next step, etc. In all honesty, we have been kind of avoiding all of the questions because we needed some time.
Jayson and I went to Wichita on Wednesday, October 4th for our blood test to find out if we were pregnant. My levels came back positive at 240. We then had to do another repeat test on Friday, October 6th to ensure the levels were rising appropriately. They came back at 558. Things were looking good. My nurse scheduled another blood test for a week later on Friday, October 13th. My levels at this point were 8,235. That would be our last blood test assuming everything was going well. Everything was looking good, however that weekend I began to have some spotting. It wasn’t much, however given our history, it managed to send me into a panic. I contacted my nurse on Monday and asked her for a repeat blood test for peace of mind. Of course she was amazing and reassuring and let me take another one. The results came back at 18,700. Everything was still looking good and my nurse said she had no concerns. I didn’t have any more spotting until this last Friday and it started again. It kind of tapered off over the weekend and was pretty scant by Sunday evening. Today, Jayson and I had our appointment in Wichita for our first sonogram. I went to use the restroom right before going into our appointment and had more spotting. I was beside myself and was very negative going into our appointment. Our first sonogram appointment has always been bad news for us, so our anxiety was already heightened and you add this on top of it, it was brutal.
I told the nurse about it before the doctor came in and you could see her demeanor change although she was trying to keep me positive by reassuring me that I haven’t had any cramping. The doctor came in to do the sonogram and I have to say this was the most amazing day. We were able to see not only one baby, BUT TWO!! Both of the embryos we transferred took, so we have fraternal twins! We were able to hear both of their heartbeats as well. Baby A was measuring two days ahead of Baby B. Baby A had a heart rate of 129 and Baby B a heart rate of 123. The doctor said that everything at this point looks rock solid. The bleeding could either have been from the baby aspirin I was on for my donor egg protocol (it thins blood) or just from the fact that I am pregnant with twins and spotting is common in twin pregnancies from all the rapid growing my uterus is doing.
I have to say that while I was extremely excited, I felt pretty bad that Jayson and I automatically assumed the worst and doubted God. They say your Faith is tested in times like this and we failed. God please forgive us!
I know there is a lot of different opinions on whether or not to share a pregnancy before you’re 12 weeks, however Jayson and I decided to go ahead and share with all of you. You all have been so supportive for us throughout the last four years and have been praying for us. We are choosing to put our fear aside and actually enjoy this pregnancy. Our anxiety has been very high the last few weeks. Jayson made the comment that he felt like we were waiting for the sonogram for proof before we would allow ourselves to believe it or enjoy it. He was right and I was sad that’s what it came down to. We will be seven weeks as of Wednesday, so it’s still very early and we definitely still need all of your prayers. I ask that you pray for our fear and anxiety to be replaced with peace and that we are able to enjoy our pregnancy. I ask that you please lift our twins up in prayers that they will continue to grow and develop on schedule. I also ask that you pray for my pregnancy and that it be healthy without complications.
Below are some pictures of the sonogram today as well as one video of Baby A’s heartbeat. It was the most amazing sound 💗. Everything was going so fast we didn’t get a recording of Baby B’s heartbeat, but it sounded just as strong and amazing! We are so excited to meet our rainbow babies! God is good!
For all of my friends that are still in waiting, please know I haven’t forgotten you. I know how hard pregnancy announcements can be regardless of how happy you are for the person. I will continue to pray for you every single day. Don’t give up!
With love,
Haley