Do you ever have those days/weeks/months where you feel like God is listening to every one but you? I would like to say that I have it all together and never feel like that, but I would be lying.
As I stated in a previous blog post, last week was extremely hard for me. I had no motivation and was consumed by thoughts of infertility. It was all I could think of. There seems to be so many obstacles in front of us, I began to wonder if Jayson and I were ever going to be able to start our family.
It’s so easy to get sucked down into that hole of self-pity. I hate to admit it, but I let myself go there and I went deep. Thank God for Jayson! If it wasn’t for him pulling me out, I probably would still be down there.
Anyone that is currently in the thick of infertility has the right and DESERVES to grieve, be upset, have a self-pity party and let it all out. The important thing is that we ALWAYS stay faithful. God has a wonderful meaning for our grief and we have to stay faithful to that – no matter how hard that can be.
While we may think that He has forgotten us while He is off doing things for other people, that couldn’t be further from the truth. Just because we don’t see Him working or feel His plan coming together, trust Him, He is working on putting His PERFECT plan for you into action in His PERFECT timing.
Yesterday I saw the below video floating around Facebook from a couple of different people and I decided to go ahead and watch it, even though I knew it had to do with infertility and it would probably make me cry. I’m glad that I watched it. While not everyone’s story will end like the story in the video, the pain of infertility is all the same. I can’t stress it enough – You are not alone AND God has not forgotten you.
Hold your heads high and find peace in knowing that God has a special plan for you and is currently working on putting it together!
With love,
Haley