One thing that I’m told often is how strong I am. It’s also one thing that I get frustrated hearing. I know everyone is coming from a good place but that strength sometimes I feel is a show to the world.
To the world I put on a smile and go about my day like there isn’t anything constantly on my mind or eating at my soul each and every day.
The private moments are when I let myself cry, scream and some days really struggle to even get out of bed. So when people say that I’m strong, I want to yell and say you don’t see me in my private moments, you have no idea how weak I feel at times.
They are right though, I am strong. Jayson and I have been going through infertility treatments for basically four years straight. We have gone to multiple appointments, I have either given myself or been given thousands of shots. Jayson and I have lost four babies to miscarriages.
We know the struggle of wanting something so badly but finances preventing it because insurance doesn’t pay for anything.
But the things is – we keep going. We get up every day and we keep fighting. We don’t give up.
Even though I may feel like some days or moments I’m extremely weak – the fact is that I am very strong. So is everyone that has gone through infertility. I have always said that this isn’t a journey for the weak – we are strong and we won’t give up on our dreams.
There may be more obstacles in front of you than there are for others but you will overcome them. You will get your happy ending in one way or another. Trust in His timing and trust your strength!
On those days where you don’t think you’re strong, just remember this:
It’s okay to be exhausted. It’s okay to have melt downs by screaming and crying but don’t for a second doubt the strength you have inside of you!
With love,
Haley