When you’re fighting the battle of infertility the news of anyone getting pregnant stings. It makes you weak in the knees and it makes you question EVERYTHING. Why am I being punished? Does God not think I will be a good mother? Am I not just as deserving? So many emotions creep in and while…
I was asked the other day what it felt like to carry the weight of infertility. The question stopped me in my tracks. I had no idea how to answer that. How could I possibly put into words the emotions I have been feeling and experiencing for the last four years? How do you…
You may not have been aware that Sunday, April 23rd started 2017’s National Infertility Awareness Week. I have been thinking about this week for awhile now and what I would write here on my blog in order to give this week the attention that it deserves. Jayson and I spent Sunday doing something extra special…
For those of you who have been reading my blog, you know that patience is definitely not my strong suit. I truly believe that during this infertility journey, God has been testing my patience and just exactly how much I trust in Him and His plan. I have failed miserably at this test! I think…
I love to listen to KLOVE radio station. For those of you who haven’t heard of it, it’s a Christian radio station that broadcasts pretty much throughout the United States. I first discovered them on one of my many trips to Wichita for a fertility appointment. I got out of the Salina area and the station…
If you haven’t seen “The Shack” yet, I highly recommend you head to the movies tonight! I went over the weekend with Jayson and his family and then went again with a couple of my friends. It’s amazing. It really makes you think….and cry! The movie helped answer so many questions for me. I never quite…
I feel like a prisoner! As I have said so many times before, this journey isn’t for the weak. When I have weak moments I start second guessing everything. Are we doing the right thing? Should we be investing our money in our home that so desperately needs it? Are we getting behind on projects that needs…
I saw the above picture when I was browsing on Pinterest and it got me pretty emotional. There has been a lot going on lately along with the infertility that I have felt like there is nothing good in the world anymore. I have been becoming very bitter and letting these trials take over my life. I’m not sure…
Last night I had an overwhelming feeling of pure sadness. I had this intense feeling that all our friends and family were moving on with their lives and felt as though Jayson and I are stuck. We have friends and family getting married, having babies, taking trips with their family, making improvements on their house and Jayson and I…
One thing that I’m told often is how strong I am. It’s also one thing that I get frustrated hearing. I know everyone is coming from a good place but that strength sometimes I feel is a show to the world. To the world I put on a smile and go about my day like…