Until yesterday, this blog has mainly been for me to write and get my thoughts and feelings out. Jayson shared my blog on Facebook yesterday and at first, I was so worried. These posts are very personal and it’s not always easy letting others know how you’re feeling. I’m always one to try and put…
I’m ashamed to say that I never really thought about infertility or miscarriage until we were living it. I always thought it was something that was rare and not many people had to experience that journey. Boy was I wrong! Last year shortly after Mother’s Day I posted on Facebook sharing our journey up to that point…
I have been thinking a lot lately about a conversation I had with one of my friends last week. We went out for dinner before meeting up with the guys to watch the KSU bowl game. At dinner we were talking about the fertility journey. I was talking to her about donor eggs and how…
With today being the last day of 2016, I have been reflecting a lot today on the year. It’s been extremely hard and probably the hardest year that Jayson and I have ever had in our lives. We continued down the road of infertility with high hopes of being pregnant this year and possibly even…
Do you ever get that little voice in the back of your head saying all those horrible things to you? You’re worthless What kind of woman are you – you can’t even provide your husband with a child You’re not loveable Your husband is going to leave you You would be a horrible mother and…
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. As I stated in a previous post, I know how hard this day can be. I had my moments where I wondered if Jayson and I would ever get to experience Christmas as parents. There was a quote spreading around Facebook that said something along the lines of……I…
I knew this year would be hard, especially when we found out about our 4th miscarriage a couple of weeks ago. I never knew exactly how hard it would be. Social media is swarming with absolutely adorable children and families starting their Christmas traditions. It’s hitting me like a ton of bricks. The littlest things…
Yesterday Jayson and I were out running errands trying to prepare for our travels for Christmas this weekend. We had went to Sonic to get a drink and the way Jayson talks in the intercom always makes me laugh and reminds me so much of his dad. Jayson is a spitting image of him! I…
December 20, 2016 I have stared at this blank page for awhile now wondering how to start this blog. I have been contemplating starting one for some time now but always thought I wouldn’t have the words to describe my feelings. Instead I have always searched for other blogs to follow to help me through…