“They say sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some and right now, right now, I’m losing bad.” Do you ever hear a song and it just hits you at your core? Jayson had been telling me about a new song by MercyMe, “Even If”, that he heard on the radio. He said he really…
As you know, Jayson and I are currently working to save up money for the use of an egg donor. We know that it will be our next step, however we aren’t sure how soon we will be able to move forward due to the cost of the entire process. I had e-mailed my nurse from…
This weekend the weather was so nice, it almost made me forget that it was still February. Saturday I had stepped outside on the deck to enjoy the weather for awhile while the dogs were playing in the yard. A few houses down, I heard the sounds of children playing – they were yelling, screaming, laughing…
Do you ever have those days/weeks/months where you feel like God is listening to every one but you? I would like to say that I have it all together and never feel like that, but I would be lying. As I stated in a previous blog post, last week was extremely hard for me. I had…
The last month or so has been extremely difficult for me and I wasn’t prepared for it at all and quite frankly, I wasn’t really sure of the reasoning. I knew I was emotional, sad and very irritable and I haven’t been happy. Of course infertility can give you these feelings but it seemed to…
Do you ever have those days where you know without a shadow of a doubt that God has your back? Yesterday was one of those days for me! I admittedly have been struggling with my emotions this week. I want to be a mom so badly and I just see obstacle after obstacle in front…
I have received several questions lately regarding the title of my blog. I get asked why I named it Chasing Rainbows or what does Chasing Rainbows mean, etc. I decided to name it Chasing Rainbows because after Jayson and I had our first miscarriage, a friend told me, “Just wait until you have your rainbow baby.” I…
While infertility is sadly very common, it’s not well known. A lot of people don’t talk about it because it is a very personal matter. Everyone has their right to decide if they want to share their story or not. I decided I wanted to start talking about our story to a few select family members and friends…
I can say without a doubt in my mind that I am not the same person I was before we started walking down the road of infertility. Sure there are attributes about me that remain the same, but overall I have changed. After you walk this road and have had multiple miscarriages, you can’t help…
One thing that I have learned over the years of dealing with infertility is that there is a lot of support out there for women. I follow a couple of women on Facebook that post things on a daily basis and they host monthly support meetings in their city. There are other women who have blogs similar to mine…